I Don't Like Spiders And Snakes...

So I have a few irrational fears. Who doesn't?

I have always been afraid of bugs for no reason (aside from this movie), I get nervous butterflies before I get on a roller coaster (a few summers working in an amusement park will make anyone wary) but the one fear I have that is completely unexplainable is needles. I've never had any sort of bad experience with needles. I was reasonably healthy for the first 24 years of my life and didn't have any more injections than the next person. Yet, for some unknown, ridiculous reason, I am terrified of needles.

Just thinking about a needle is enough to make me nauseous. My diabetic grandmother used to ask us to get her needle from the fridge for her. I would send my little sister. Time for a blood test? If I thought about it too far in advance I would be so nervous by the time I got to the doctor's office I wouldn't be able to sit still.

I never thought I would have to actually pick up a needle and inject myself. It gives me the willies. I try not to think about it until it's time. I try to make sure I'm nice and relaxed but I just can't help it. I had my sixth injection tonight and I'm just not sure I'll ever get used to it.

One More Day

Thanksgiving weekend went pretty well. I narrowly avoided disaster in the middle of a long drive on a highway with very few exits. I had a great time. I ate too much but it was worth it. Nothin' like home cooking.

After a long weekend with the family I realize how lucky I am. No family is perfect and mine is no exception, but I am incredibly blessed to have parents who would do anything for me and siblings who are also great friends.

As far as the Crohn's goes, I'm not doing very well. Tomorrow is Humira day. I think I will give it a few days and see what happens. We had a little slip up on the last injection and I didn't get the entire dose. I'm hoping that's what the problem is and the medicine kicks back in this week. I'm not very good at waiting games.

The Crappy Week Continues...

I'm still having major digestive problems but the headaches seem to have stopped. I am convinced, although my doctor finds it strange, that the headaches begin a day or two after my injection and continue for a few days. I could deal with headaches if they came with some sort of relief from the pain and other symptoms but that's just not the case.

I'm looking forward to going back home for Thanksgiving this week to spend some time with the family and relax a bit. Hopefully the drive goes smoothly and the visit goes smoothly. I know I will suffer after the turkey and trimmings but I will eat them anyway and try not to stress too much about anything.

I've decided that I will try one more injection on Monday. If things don't improve after that one it's time to call the doctor. Enough's enough.