Today I had my first blood test in three months. It was just a regular old checkin-up-on-the-Humira test. My nurse told me I have a completely new face which, I think, was a compliment. The 6mp bloat is gone and I have some color. I know I look better. I feel better. My life is better. I just still don't feel great.
My stomach is almost 100% better. I rarely have any trouble digesting anything I eat - even the stuff I shouldn't be eating. I do, however, still have Crohn's belly after every meal. If I swallow anything, no matter how big or small, it results in a food baby. I still have some trouble if I'm in an uncomfortable situation or if I'm nervous - BUT - compared to last year at this time, I'm a new person. So, when I call for my results on Monday, do I complain about this stuff? Should I just shut up? I can eat now! I can leave my house after I eat! I can make it to work without getting off the train and running to find the nearest facilities! Do I have the right to complain about some minor (if embarrassing) discomfort?
Then there's the pain. I do still have some minor pain when I, uh, youknow. But I have other, more disruptive pain. There's a pain at the base of my neck, on my back, where my neck meets my shoulder. It's recurring. It's horrible. It's much worse when I'm stressed out.
And my legs. They still hurt. It's more of a stiffness in the morning. They feel strained when I go up and down stairs. By the end of the day it's a different kind of pain. It's an achy, crampy, swollen type of pain that makes me just want to sit with my feet up or lie down. I've also notice many, many visible blood vessels on my legs which weren't there just a few months ago.
Then there are the headaches. I still have them. Often. And they're sometimes drug-resistant and always incredibly disruptive. And they make me so tired. Do I tell my doctor?
I've told him a million times about the headaches but he seems to think it's from the Humira so it's either headaches or Crohn's.
The body aches? He will send me straight back to the Rheumatologist who will tell me it's either Arthritis or Fibromyalgia and I can go to physical therapy. But I don't want to go to physical therapy. I can't afford physical therapy nor do I have the spare time. I want to know what's wrong with me! I want to know what my options are!
How do I voice this to my doctor in a way that doesn't make me feel like a half-crazy, whiney baby?
Suggestions? Advice?
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I don"t actually have any advice but as a fellow Crohn's sufferer who is just finally feeling better after a six month flare-up but still isn't feeling great I know where you are coming from. People don't understand, especially the doctors, that feeling better doesn't necessarily mean feeling great, and sometimes the small aches and pains add up and you just want a little relief.
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